July 1st.
The year is half gone. Time flies.
My head is full of so many thoughts. It feels like one of those little dart guns, or maybe it's a water gun. Thoughts keep shooting by and before it lands anywhere another thought has taken off. So please bear with me as I try to put to "paper" (ain't that an old phrase) my thoughts, which as already stated, are many.
The days are long but the years are short.
What you do today is important because you are exchanging a
day of your life for it.
Sometimes you will never know the value of a moment until it
becomes a memory.
I think it’s important to think about years past, even a
month or two, things change. People have entered or exited our life. People
die. Friends pass on.
I received an email from (Cari’s sister) Betzi today. She was
kind enough to send me the video from Cari’s Memorial Service and of some of
her ashes being spread. It was a beautiful video.
I am grateful to see Cari with so much life, having so very
much fun. And to see her being laid to rest where she loved to be was for me,
very moving.
I learned today that:
We think we have time.
We go day by day thinking life doesn’t
change. We get up, work all day and day by day nothing changes, but if we look
back at years past, things are different.
Cari and I had a friendship from years gone by. Friends from when we were wee kids. Friends from before we celebrated six years of life. As adults we led different lives. My heart never grew out of love with her. Yes, we knew each other from simpler times, but our friendship never changed. As her husband told me, the love Cari had for me was so deep in her heart. It is mutual. My heart is hurting because my love for her was deep. Everytime I think this, I shed tears.
I received a call
from Cari’s phone about a month after she passed away….it freaked me out. I was
in Costco, quietly losing my mind as I do whenever I shop Costco, but this was
a different freak out. My friend is calling me from the other side. It was her
husband calling to tell me how much I meant to Cari. How much she loved me and
how he loved hearing stories about us. I needed to hear that. True love, true
friendship - perhaps souls that never lose touch. Whatever it is I was blessed
for knowing Cari, she lived life (and from the video), I can see she had
opportunities to make great memories.
Your time as a caterpillar has expired. Your wings are
ready.
Cari will always be deep in my heart. As will my handful of
friends that I am so lucky to have. Grateful they put up with me and my weirdness.
Betzi, thank you for sending the videos, Mark, thanks for the
phone call. And YOU.. thanks for reading!
